The dreams had become more and more treacherous each day. She dreams of demons, haunting, hunting her in the dark. She runs a never ending path, stumbling, tripping, trying not to lose balance. When she finally ran out of breath, she could only turn and see arms, reaching towards her from the darkness. She wanted to scream, but her words were stuck in her throat, choking her with fear.

She knew it was just a dream. But dreaming was different to her than to any ordinary person. When she dreams she walks in the realms of spirits and demons. Her soul shines bright, attracting spirits and sorts like moths. Spirits are fine. It was demons she should shield herself against. She knew it, yet she does not know how.

Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!

Sweat rolled down her forehead. She could see the demon’s face now. Shapeless face, holey red eyes, and its grin, showing all its sharp teeth. She was to be its meal tonight and it will take over her body, creating an abomination in the waking world.

Her sight started to blur, she started hyperventilating. She had always been able to escape the nightmares before. They were extremely strenuous, but she managed, and she wakes up on the other side, bed soaked in sweat.

Wake up!

The mantra usually worked.

She lifted her left arm, now fifty times heavier than it should, and with the energy she had left, she bit down hard. Her teeth sunk into the flesh, blood started pouring. The pain was real. She cringed, yet kept her teeth burrowed inside the flesh. She bit again harder, adding more pain to what was already there. She hoped it would be enough to pull her out of the dream.

For Fuck sake, WAKE UP!

She woke up with a loud gasp for air. Her sheets, again, soaked with sweat. She was back, finally. She sat up and slowly brought her breathing back into a calm rhythm. When she moved her left arm, she flinched as pain stung through her forearm. She lifted her fur blanket and revealed a giant bruise on her forearm. It was where she bit her arm in the dream, but there were no bite mark, just a very large and painful bruise.

She sighed. “I guess I’ll have to report this to him.”


I am Sworn to Carry Your Burden!

When my boyfriend introduced me to Skyrim, I fell in love with it right away. I played it on his Xbox 360 and my first character was a Khajiit. I found being a humanoid cat very intriguing.

This was like 2 years after the actual game was released. I actually heard lots of good stuff about the game from my friends on the first years of its release. But back then, my computer wouldn’t be strong enough to run the game and I did not have my ps3 yet. I heard memes about Skyrim; all the Fus Ro Dah thing and the arrow to the knee.

The first thing I did when I got to the first town in Skyrim was admire how cool the world looks and then I saw a chicken and swung my dagger through it. Boy, how I was not a wise Khajiit. I immediately got a bounty on my head and the whole town pulled their pitchforks out and charged after me. Having no idea what’s going on, I panicked and run while occasionally swung my daggers around to keep the peasants away. *hiss* My boyfriend who was sitting next to me burst into laughter as I confusedly running in all direction trying to not get killed.


When I inevitably died, my boyfriend told me that I couldn’t just run around killing animals. The people wold get angry. And that made me love the game more. I was fairly new to the gaming world back then, I have never encountered such game mechanics. I was fascinated. It was such a whole new world for me!

The second thing I learned was sneaking up on people and steal their things from their dining table or dresser. I started sneaking and stealing all the things. I’m not even kidding. ALL THE THINGS. And for some reason, I started hoarding cabbages. I DON’T KNOW WHY!tumblr_mqiw9hHfc51swngw9o3_500

When they announced The Legendary Edititon, I immediately pre-ordered it for my PS3. When it came out, I disappeared from reality for about a week.

There were so many things I love about the game. The vast open world was one thing. The dragon battles were absolutely amazing. Every time the music started playing when I was just running around looking for dungeons to delve in, I squee like a cat getting one of those fancy wet cat food in its bowl.

After spending hundreds of hours just playing Skyrim, my boyfriend told me to give Dragon Age a try and that time I would just tell him to shut up and went back to Skyrim. By Andraste, how I was so wrong to ignore him.

And now I worship Dragon Age and Bioware as if they were the purpose of my life. And I’m a proud Andrastian as well, just to piss religious people off.

“But Andraste is not real! She’s just a made up story from your stupid game!”

pfftt… yeah, right.

Anyway, back to Skyrim! I am currently enjoying Skyrim again on my PC. This time with hundreds of mods installed. I’m surpried that my computer can take it at all. Good work, Morrigan. Yes, I named my computer Morrigan cuz she’s moody as hell. I’m sure one of these days she would just not run Skyrim at all just because reasons. And then started shutting down by herself while I’m in the middle doing stuff. Or not turning on at all.

Oh, I’ll find a way to turn you on, Morrigan. Just watch me! Leliana, come here!

wait… what ..?!

Ehm… anyway

I got a few mods… Mostly texture enhancing mods. Added a few bit and bobs like hunger, thirst and rested mod, companion tweaking mod that allows me to have more than one companion at a time, so I can have like a Dragon Age party, and lastly, a mod that would let me have sex… with my partner… and other NPCs… *shamefully stares at the carpet*


In other news, I made a comic!


I made a new character! (Instead of my usual Talia Wilde character). She actually has a loooooooong back story that I’m currently writing as a Dragon Age fan fiction. I got it all in my head and so far I have written nothing more than half a page. I should get back to that.

Quick update!

I haven’t been writing in so long! How could I?!

I’ve been distracted and unmotivated. Witcher 3 has been taking most of my time and then Neverwinter for a little bit (until I accidentally spent 80k Astral Diamonds that I’ve been saving to get a better Vorpal enchantment or a greater mark of potency, to auto-finish a stupid hire extra merc for my leadership profession). I think that’s goodbye to Neverwinter for a while.

And then ESO came out. I WAS TOOOORRRNNNN~ when they announced ESO for the first time (which was like one and a half year ago), I was so pumped. I even pre-ordered the massive collector’s edition with the massive statue from MightyApe. And then they delayed the console release. For more than a year. I lost all my hype.

I wanted ESO to be more like Skyrim, but I know it is not. I heard lots of people was so pumped about it thinking that it was gonna be like Skyrim. I wanted to get it but I’m not willing to spend another $120 on a game that I know is not going to be what I want to be.

And so I ended up getting Skyrim on my PC thank’s to Steam summer sale, along with a whole bunch of other games which if you sum up will be about $120 as well. HA!

Yeah, so now I’m gonna be busy with Skyrim… and Fallout:NV… and Witcher 3 on Blood and Broken Bones (since I’ve given up on Death March! after dying 10 times by a Gargoyle’s 1 hit kill)